So today is day 5 of my 30 Days in my life bloggin thingy. It’s Saturday and I’m a little melancholy today. I went to my cut my grandmother’s hair. She is 96 and doesn’t remember me at this point and I can’t help but wonder why some people live so long and some are here with us too short of a time.
My grandmother (my dad’s mom) has had Alzheimer’s disease for several years now and she’s just this year gotten pneumonia and had it for 2 months, then she recently fell and broke her hip. She had a rod about 12″ put in and 2 days later they had her back in the nursing home. She has talked of wanting to go when she has coherent moments but her body just won’t quit. She’s like the energizer bunny.
I’m not really going anywhere with this but I just am telling you about my life as it is now. I found this old picture of my mom and while it’s not dated, I think she is about 15 here and I believe I am 14 here. I do know I was a freshman in high school. The two pics reminded me of one another. What a different world we both lived in. I miss her everyday and still as I think of her, my eyes get wet even after 3 and a half years.
She would’ve hated that I posted this picture of her, but I love all my photos of her. I think she is beautiful. She had style. Just look at those glasses and that flipped up collar and can you imagine what color that shirt is? I’m guessing purples but I’ll never know. I remember my mom’s friends telling me when they were young and wanted to go out on the weekend that Mom couldn’t go because she had spent all her money on a new outfit. That’s just like her. It makes me smile and laugh to think of it.
I think I’ll post more personal photos during this month, after all this is 30 days of my life. You may just get tired of me 😉
A beautiful post Jamie. We never stop missing our loved ones when they leave us. I shed a tear here and there when I hear a song that reminds me of my son, or when I use my dad’s chili grinder. It goes on, never to stop. Things ease up a little and that’s about it. Enjoy life Jaime and continue doing the things you love with those you love. Thank you for leaving your beautiful pix on my blog. It’s a very cheerful face. Take care of yourself. I put the marigold seeds in last week and hopefully they come up. It’s that time of year, Yahoo!!, planting time.:)
Thank you Gloria, I know you’ve had more than your fair share of grief. I’m so glad you’re growing those sweet little marigolds, they were my favorites last year.
Morning Jaime…wow.. this is a big undertaking…but should be fun… love the pics of you and your Mom… what style… she is lovely..and so are you… you have her beautiful smile…Time heals so much but the missing never goes away… Often wonder about the reason some live so long and in such a state too while others leave so early.. doesn’t make much sense to me either…doesn’t seem to be any rhyme or reason to it…
love your post.. have fun with this challenge.. take care…
xoxo
Hi Kath, thanks so much. I’ve already slipped on a day so we’ll see how it goes with the challenge but remember we’re not going to call it that! lol
I love seeing these 2 photos side by side.
And I loved the whole post really.
You made me think…even though my mom
is still alive, I don’t have a picture of her (other than her
wedding picture) She tore her face out of every picture
from my childhood and hides from the camera…funny,
you would think she was Amish. Or not pretty(which she was/is)
Anyway Jamie, melancholy moods are ok…wistful remembering.
And I know you won’t stay down, your vibrant soul has too much
joy in it! ♥♥♥
Lisa you should get some pictures of that woman whether she likes it or not. Tell her it’s for you, Leo and Mia! I also would recommend video, oh how I wish I had video of Mom. I have a tiny bit and I have an audio recording of her saying her name on her voice mail, I’ve nearly wore it out. But Asher doesn’t remember her, so I wish I had video of her singing “You are my sunshine” to him, which she always did. *sniff* I still can’t sing that song to him without coming undone. But you’re right… I won’t stay down and I didn’t… I choose to be happy!